Ratchetness
So it’s late and I just got home a little while ago but now I’m in bed & I can’t sleep. This obviously leads to boredom so I’m just gonna talk about my summer so far & whatever else comes to mind. Let’s get ratchet.
When summer break 1st started I was depressed thinking about coming home to Pflugerville. I actually didn’t come home until about a week after I was already done. The town is a piece of shit. The only people that stay in Pflugerville are people with no goals, dumbasses, low-lifes or middle-aged adults with kids. I literally don’t know how I managed not to try drugs until college. Anyways, when I got here I just wanted to cry. There’s nothing to do, I don’t have money, I can’t find a job, I HATE living at home & MOST importantly they closed down all the 18+ clubs downtown in Austin (priorities right? Lol) I mean summer school starts next week & I’m almost excited about it. Something is wrong with that shit! Pfuck this place & it’s bottomless pit of boredom. My life is becoming a downward spiral. I’m about to explain how.
I lost my v-card last week just because I wanted to. I didn’t care for the guy as more than a friend. I didn’t care that it was our 1st time legit hanging out, I just wanted to do it. Wtf? I mean I’m not saying I regret it but there was a time when I had standards & actually wanted my 1st time to be with someone special… He seemed to be considerate enough about my feelings but I still literally feel nothing for him even though he was my 1st. Moreover, neither 1 of us tried to contact the other at all afterwards so I think it’s safe to say that we were both mutually using each other. 1 night stand success at it’s finest & I don’t even care. I feel like I should feel like a dirty whore right now but my attitude is “fuck it.” Its all just sober fun if you ask me. Kinda ratchet huh? Let’s keep it going.
Today I went streaking outside in the field by the lake with my best friend. Now I don’t think this is bad, just ratchet. Maybe even extremely ratchet. It was definitely the most liberating thing I’ve ever done. I would totally do that shit again. It was fun as hell. Everyone should have that experience. I felt like a kid again. Needless to say if we had gotten caught by the police or anyone I would’ve probably just laid down, closed my eyes and hope I blended in with the dirt. But once again, it’s all just sober fun.
Next week we shall go skinny dipping. Hip hip hooray! All I need is to be drunk off life to do a bunch of pointless dumb shit apparently. I would say that’s the main thing my friend has taught me though. There’s definitely fun to be had without being under the influence. But then again it’s always nice to have your other best friend that loves to get high or wasted so then you can re-do all that shit & it’ll be even more fun. Lol… This town is not good for me. This will probably be the best summer of my life until I turn 21 though…
But then again I wonder how much things are gonna change by the time I’m 21. Who am I gonna be hanging with & who isn’t gonna be apart of my life anymore. The future… It’s weird to think about. I almost feel like there isn’t a purpose to putting a lot of effort into thinking or planning things because life is so random. You can never know what’s going to happen. I think about shit like this a lot, especially when I’m high. Matter of fact I think about everything when I’m high. Maybe that’s why I like getting drunk better. I’m always thinking about shit but when I’m wasted I don’t think or feel anything. I just laugh, which happens to be my favorite past times…
Lol there’s so many people that don’t really know me. I wonder what they would think if they ever read this.
Blehh, I’m sleepy now,
Ratchet post over.
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